Gandma

Grandma,
I dont know where to begin ,but i really need you right now ..i miss you more and more each day ,i still dont beleieve that your not here with me ne more, its been 2 yrs and im still not over it grandma where r u i cant help but cry almost everyday thinking of how much i want you back here ...u were my lief and its not fair i rememebr my last goodbye but i never thought it was goin to actually be my last goodbye , oh god how i miss you . No one really knows how mcuh u ment to me i still remember how i embarraresd u when i said sum thing i should not have said when i was like 4 hehe but ne way ,...u never gave up on me and were always there 4 me ..and now i need u and u r gone ...it hurts so bad ... ..u could have pulled threw but i dont know...i rememebr u told me u loved me and i cried b.c i knew u were sick and not gunna be there for much longer.. grand ma we watched and saw u pass working hands stoped and a golden heart was no longer beating ...it hurt us so much and though we wanted we could not make u stay god broke my heart that winter day grand ma i wish we had more time ....im Soon Turning 16..And Im Now In Parkveiw..I Wish u were here to wish me luck...i cant help how much i miss u i wish u could see it all..well be there 4 it i know u can see everything cuz u always have but hey each and everyday i think of u and how ur prolly up there oplayin cards with Ganddad and the gang hehe well grandma if there is a # to heaven sumone up there has to know it ..i need to know it ....i cant do this ne more ...i cant live with out u ...i need u here and so does mom ..she misses u too everyday we all miss u ...but ur looking after Buford for me right hehe ..i know u r well grandma i miss u dearly and u know i do ..and ur prolly mad at me 4 crying u never liked to be a "bother"..u NEVER were..but i cant help it .. i love u and misss u **RIP** Love ur lil angel